I'm self-employed with ADHD: this is what it's really like
Who needs sleep anyway?
I didn’t feel the sense of relief that some people describe when I received my inattentive-type ADHD diagnosis nearly two years ago. The build-up to that point had been gradual and when it finally came, it was a formality – I already knew what the result would be.
Not that it stopped me from questioning whether I had subconsciously answered the questions ‘correctly’. Perhaps I was just a skilled con artist, on top of being lazy and useless? To be clear, I don’t believe any of those things to be true about myself, but the thought did cross my mind at that time. I’ve since discovered that disbelief is surprisingly common and many people with ADHD worry that they’re masterful fakers. It’s not because pride makes us reject the idea of living with a neurological condition, it’s generally because we fear our behaviour is entirely within our control but we’ve managed to fool a doctor into believing otherwise.
“ADHD (attention deficit hyperactivity disorder) is a neurological disorder that impacts the parts of the brain that help us plan, focus on, and execute tasks. ADHD symptoms vary by sub-type and are often more difficult to diagnose in girls and adults.” - ADDitudemag.com
There were two key reasons why I began to question why I am like I am.